The ups and downs.... on the scale!

So I'm officially down 28.6 pounds so far!!

I feel like it's more... because my clothes are fitting a lot better and some are even loose. But I know my weigh in day is Monday... I will not be stepping on the scale early!

I don't want to self sabotage. The number on the scale is not the ultimate goal. It's getting healthier and feeling better physically and mentally!

So I have for you an accomplishment that has nothing to do with the numbers on the scale... I was running late for work this morning... I overslept... (oops!) and grabbed a random uniform shirt out of the closet as I'm rushing to get dressed. On the way to work I realized it is a uniform shirt I've not been able to wear for 2 YEARS!!!!

After starting off the morning in a rush and feeling crappy because I overslept, I have now a great feeling as I type this because I feel so proud to be wearing this shirt.

I haven't gone in depth too much yet with my issue with food. Which I will do on a future blog... but I am a food addict to give you the short and sweet version. Last night, my kids wanted pizza for dinner... So I caved and ordered pizza. Instead of eating it... I splurged and bought myself a salad from Subway. So this is a big deal to me. I didn't allow the little "fat girl" in my head to win this round.


What about you? Do you self sabotage? What is the moment that you triumphed over your demon?
I don't care if the demon is food, alcohol, the stair climber, the treadmill, or the big hill by your house. We all have that one thing that we feel keeps coming back to get us...

You are not alone in this!! I've got your back!

XO,
CQ

First of Many

Hey! Thank you for stopping by! If you're finding me on here because you're looking for a support system I will support the hell out of you! I know what it's like to be self defeating. To feel you're not worth it. To believe that you can't do it... instead of doing it. I have a long history of telling myself "No, you can't.... " about a lot of things. I've missed out on a lot because of it. But that's another blog...

Let me introduce myself...

I am a 35 year old woman recently diagnosed Type II Diabetic. I have always been aware that this would happen... and thankfully it's happened when I'm physically capable to make changes. Meaning, I'm young enough to start making the changes to my diet and to my life style.

I am currently following a Low Carb, High Protein, and High veggie diet. Meaning I stay away from Carbohydrates - breads, pastas, rices, and most fresh fruit. I allow myself about 2-3 servings a week of white/sweet potatoes for the vitamins and eat most full fat dairy with the exception of Ice Cream and Yogurt.

Right now I walk 3 miles everyday(okay.. I have been doing it everyday pretty steady, but now I'm going to jinx myself....) and usually do it around my neighborhood so I'm close to home. My area has a hell of a lot of hills and inclines so I work my legs out pretty good. This coming week I'm going to add in at home cardio as well as start on my "weight training". Meaning, I'm buying 5# and 10# dumbbells to begin working my arms and shoulders. This will be the start to getting my ass into the gym.

I don't "meal plan" to the extent that some do... I do plan out what food I buy at the store and then I just wing it with recipes. Which tends to be a bad idea. So, my goal this week for my meal planning is to pull out my large calendar, pull out my recipe book, and start planning!
What goals do you have?
What is standing in your way?
What support do you need?


XO,
CQ