In an attempt to stop bingeing and to keep myself from overeating I am going to start a "Food Journal" so to speak.
Its a method that is used by a lot of Coaches to help a person identify what their trigger is for want to binge and help to identify any cycles that cause the desire to binge.
I know that I am supposed to identify what I'm feeling right now:
- I'm currently with people that aren't "mine". I don't feel emotionally or mentally safe with these people.
- Food makes me feel safe.
- I'm bored... but not in a mental sense... in an "I need to do something to keep me busy and create a barrier between myself and these people"
- I still have a couple of hours of my shift left and I don't know what to do with myself to keep myself busy and from saying something totally stupid.
Not sure if it's a mental thing... but I already feel less hungry. I did make myself a cup of coffee. Which is more to keep me awake. I tend to get sleepy around this time of day... guess its the hazard of getting up at 4am for work.
I know that allowing myself to binge never ends well for me. I feel the guilt of it for days and I end up fighting to get back on track for about a week.
I will say that my bingeing volume has been less than in the past. I think it's because my overall portion sizes are much smaller than they used to be so I don't need as much to feel like it's a binge anymore.
So this is my attempt at a bingeing journal. I will call this a success.. because I haven't binged while typing it. Will this method continue to work for me? We shall see.
Stay strong and remember to love yourself... if you can't love yourself yet... then try to be kind to yourself!
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